We are all the greatest– each
of us the BEST at this job
we never applied for– and from
which we will never be fired–
the benefits being intangible and
showing themselves in the most
unlikely moment– an unprompted
thank you or please– a concern born from
a devotion that is normally tossed
under the bed with the dirty socks
and missing game pieces.
None of us carefully perused the
job description– and if we read it at all,
there were pieces that we managed
to skip entirely. We didn’t realize that
the time clock is perpetually broken– and
we are most definitely not unionized.
fifteen minute breaks are laughable
and we might get the crusts and
sloppy seconds for lunch– (but no break)
if we’re lucky.
Yet somehow we stay. Unquestioning.
Without pay– constantly working overtime,
allowing ourselves to be yanked around
by an iron-fisted grip on our hearts.
Because there is nothing greater than
being the BEST at the job which is
by far the hardest, cruelest, most
demanding and perpetually rewarding
task we will ever encounter in our lives.
May 12, 2013 – My first Mother’s Day without my mother. In the past that Sunday afternoon always found me cooking supper for her, grilling her favorite foods, cooked precisely to her liking, served up with delicious red wine at home in the company of family. Can’t say we didn’t see her departure coming (she left us exactly one month ago). The release from her bed-ridden suffering was the only silver lining that day. “So how are you coping?” my friends ask. Mostly OK, but every once in awhile the grief comes full force, usually thankfully when I am alone with my tears. Losing Dad was easy compared to this (alas, I knew it would be).
I’m not at all haunted by regret, but for those of you still lucky enough to have your mother, it is impossible to say too many times, “I love you, Mom, I love you so much, you have no idea.”
—Bill
thank you so much for sharing, Bill. There is definitely nothing like the love of a mother– nor the unquestioned devotion of a child for his or her mother. Sounds like you are an amazing son. Your mother was blessed to have you, as I know you were to have her.
thank you, Mandy. I hesitate to include an outside link on your blog, but in this case I would like to share with you music that I’ve kept in steady rotation at my house over these last few weeks. I’ve been listening to music by the English group Ishq. One piece in particular is beautiful beyond words, “Bhakti.” The word “bhakti” comes from Sanskrit and means “pure spiritual devotion.”
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Bill, thanks for including the link to “bhakti.” I was finally able to check it out this evening. It’s stunning. Thank you so much for sharing it. I hope you’re well.