the edges of myself

words, words, words

I never read the rules for mothering it seems I was absent that day perhaps all of us were. Carrying around the textbook burden of guilt, the weight of which mocks our shortcomings and reveals the all-too constant truth that we’re just winging it.   Each new day, another brave face– scooping up the pieces …

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a simple narrative unwilling to wind its way from my head to hand as i ruminate over the lifetime in days counted across this brief span of time   in which my mind was willing to release held constructs– massive monuments to memory carefully created and tended through years, in quiet rooms hidden in attics and …

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a word of thanks, my gift to you whose foresight, exuding intuition masked beneath the cowardice of rationality– moved worlds beyond my will. Into an unknown certainty and the birth of a new and much more capable understanding of love. The recognition of giving and receiving in equal measure– a concept heretofore unknown by my …

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I just spent the last four weeks in the midst of a beautiful, miraculous long-distance love affair with a man I love deeply, an old friend from high school.  It was completely unexpected and nothing that I was even remotely looking for– but it was absolutely perfect, right down to the part where he said “I …

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A few days ago I received a directive from the universe.  It was hiding within a small conversation we were having (myself and the universe)–entirely one-sided up until that point.  It went a little something like this:  me:  what is it that i have to do so that you will fully get behind me and support …

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Well, I must acknowledge, I’m back to my full-on life, and while I am attempting as much as possible to create balance within that full-on– it proves to be a continuous challenge.  For about the first week after the kids arrived home I managed to remain above that vibration– the chaotic one that constantly begs …

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I’ve been hit with some massive realizations of late, not the least of which is this:  you attract the love that you believe you deserve.  Now, this may not seem like any great realization for you, but for me– it’s big.  It isn’t until just recently that I’ve been anywhere near ready for the kind …

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As I intimated in my first post—now that I’ve started letting the words out, they feel they have an imperative to flow.   My brain is rewiring into a framework for my writing, narratives winding their way through my thoughts continuously.  I had forgotten until just today, that as a child I often had a continuous …

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I have a confession to make.  .  .   I’m magical.  But here’s the bigger one, and maybe you should make sure you’re sitting down for this (I realize, you probably already are).  .  .  you are magical too.  Now, for some of you this may be coming as a complete shock, but don’t worry, …

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